new semester

many people ask me..
"why dun go and get a girlfriend?? "

my answer: i cant exactly know i will really love the girl or not..and y i still go and chase a gal?

for me..i will defense against anything that come into my life just because i scare i might get hurt again..

i am not affordable to lose anything from what i currently have..so what for i expect something more than my life? isn't it?

that is my conclusion for my life recently..

i want money

i want good result

i want good job

i want luxury life

i want high salary

i want secure my future

i want to have better future life

those are things that i want now~

i dun know about future..

but for me..now..that is what i want~

my heart is dead

recent post

this few day start to free a bit already

coming to the end of year2 sem1, i learn a lot

i learnt how to look people,

i learnt people doesn't treat you well for no reason,

i learnt the black side of people,

i learnt how others manipulate you by showing their fake-ness towards you,

seriously, it is alot.

the longer u knew someone, the more u will feel how they used their fake-ness to manipulate you

Looking people around me, i always think of why those people like to do so?

they think it is fun? or god send them to make our life more "interesting"?

but anyway, i am not getting involve in it.

time files

i grows as well

i know what i want in the future

i know little improvement or hardship might change my whole life

i had been made so many decision before come to this stage

but there are "something" that i will not get involve in it again

process of life changes people

hardship makes people clear about path to goal

i know where i should go and i am going to it

cheers~~