silent diary

new semester

2010-10-22T22:53:00.000-07:00

many people ask me..
"why dun go and get a girlfriend?? "

my answer: i cant exactly know i will really love the girl or not..and y i still go and chase a gal?

for me..i will defense against anything that come into my life just because i scare i might get hurt again..

i am not affordable to lose anything from what i currently have..so what for i expect something more than my life? isn't it?

that is my conclusion for my life recently..

i want money

i want good result

i want good job

i want luxury life

i want high salary

i want secure my future

i want to have better future life

those are things that i want now~

i dun know about future..

but for me..now..that is what i want~

my heart is dead

2010-08-31T12:17:00.001-07:00

freaking bad mood

2009-12-02T08:56:00.000-08:00

final exam

2009-09-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

seriously i fed up in this final exam
i have no idea i will done it with such a unconfident feel and without some subject can score
i am so wonder is it utar level too high o i am jz toooo stupid to flow art stream subject
i never study so hard before for a exam before..even spm o foundation
really fed up..
hope i dun fail any of my subject..haiz...
i remember before exam something happen on me..
i burst out with her..i have no idea wat she is thinking
i have no idea y she wan treat me like tat..
i have no idea wat actually happen to us even i cant jz ask her how are u..
i dun noe is it we have some misunderstanding o whatevesoever
i truely wish u to be happy and...
anyway..i still hope we can be normal friend..just a normal friend with normal chatting normal talking normal msn..i won over than tat..but if u dun wan..i won force u as well..
just take care and do well in whatever u do..
cheers..

我讨厌这样的感觉

2009-08-31T09:10:00.001-07:00

不知道为什么今天真的很伤感

很伤心

你真的要用这样的方式对我吗？

我真的很伤心。。你知道吗？

我还能为你做些什么？

真的很down 咯。。。

最近每天晚上都抱着伤心。。失落的感觉入睡。。

这种感觉真的好痛苦。。每天要面对自己不喜欢的东西。。每天在学校当小丑。。别人以为很开心。。可是他们有没有考虑你的感受。。好落魄。。

头脑每天想不该想的东西。。

要考试了。。还是没心情读书。。

有谁可以帮我？

难道我的人生就这么的辛苦？？

我真的很累了。。

能不能让我过好一点的生活？？

心累了。。真的真的累了。。。。

累了。。。。。。。。

hometown

2009-08-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

tmr going back kampar study le...
haiz...
everything keep changing
as i growing up..i find many thing is out of my control..out of control of keep changing..
until i cant accept the changing..
until i shock of the changing..
but i noe..
i am also changing..

a conclusion of tis few weeks

2009-08-11T08:46:00.000-07:00

time flies..
tis semester going end soon
AND.....FINAL EXAM COME LO...!!!
tis few will be more relax cos all ass n test over ady
so i only need to wait for final exam
but..i still not so adapt to new environment
study all these subjct is really really REALLY much more relax than science
no report
no math
no bio
no CHEMISTRY
no tough assignment
really relax..
bt then i still feel science more challenging and nicer to study..
next week i m going to have a bbq wif all my classmate..
hope it can success and happy
dun noe wat to write ady..
but there is many thing in my mind nw...
anyway..
good night..(12.17am)

utar life

2009-07-24T09:14:00.000-07:00

tonight nothing to do..

so come blogging a while..

me start degree life for 8 weeks le..

but everything seem hard for me..

i try my best to like all the subject as well as the condition to study..

it totally from science strream..

again..life is not fair..

what u wan cant get..what u dun wan..they will comes to you..

that is life..

but no matter how..

i won regret..

i will continue study..

this few week i think of many thing..

life..study..love..career..future..

it is really unfair..

degree life is not actually like what i think before i come here

but still not bad la

better than pj life

as conclusion

my degree is tiring..

miss hometown..

miss those understand me de ppl..

miss the air in my hometown..

miss the feeling when together with u all..

miss everything when i am with u all..

still...you all are best to me..

现实

2009-05-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

钱

世界好现实

读了一年的书

我发现这个世界真的很现实

什么东西都是要钱

可能我还小

钱

真的很重要吗？？

我不知道

出去读书

什么东西都是

钱！！！！

没有钱什么都不能

可是有钱却不是什么都能

当有钱人多好

要什么有什么

根本不需要去计较自己花了什么

没有压力

没有负担

没有烦恼

总之一句话

钱很重要

没有它

你什么都不能做

开始对这个世界感到悲观

a conclusion of this few week

2009-05-09T07:10:00.001-07:00

finally i finish foundation in science..
say true..i not really happy in this year..mayb cos of the environment over there..people over there..but when the time leave TE 2, i still feel a bit sad.. mayb this is my character gua..
anyway, tastypot (a steamboat shop) really nice..there gt many delicious food..me n te2 friend have a nice memory there.. here is the link..if free can go take a look..http://www.tastypot.com.my/
after that week(monday), i have a KPLSPM. In that interview, there is 3 section.
one is 135 question test and i have to finish in 30 minutes (i think the interviewer also cant finish within 30 minutes)
second is group interview. the interviwer jz throw us a topic then we discuss ourself. i did quite bad in this section.
third is individual interview. It is a 2 to 1 interview and speak in malay (i think the interviewer not very good in english..so dim use english)anyway...i jz talk whatever i noe in tis section..they ask PIPP, ko-ko problem..send u to pendalaman u ok o not..
the following day(tuesday) i have to back pj to pack my thing cos the lorry going to pick up the next afternoon..i am so tired that time bt no choice and have to pack..
after the lorry pick up all my thing, i go kampar to wait the lorry to come.bt.....WTF the lorry!!
he dim come on thursday morning..never mind..i call the office..they say later will reach..ok ok..nvm..bt after that, the lorry tell me he is on the way back penang...REALLY WTF T&E(company name)!!!!
some more kampar de rounter spoil ady..we no transport..no online..no people at home(jz mw n my roomate)..dun noe how to go out..eat also a problem...really PEK CEK tat day..
then the lorry driver beg me..saying tat they will send by tmr..i said.. ok..bt i wan u all send by tmr morning..
the next day(friday)i wait from morning to noon to evening....FINALLY!!!my thing reach...!!!
then i arrange my thing..
saturday i finally can back muar..and thanks to peggy send me back from kl to muar..
i tiring week...haiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz

study week

2009-04-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

tis week start my study break le..
bt until nw i havent touch any book yet..
tmr planning go muar go some stuff...
i am jz wondering when i m going to study..
finally, i finish foundation in science..
going kampar 20++ of may..i go there see the house before..
they seem to be nice..
bt hope so..
please dun be like pj campus anymore..

oh ya..

past few days i go view our class drama competition..

here is attach two of the most beautiful gal gal photo..

two of them cute rite..?haha..

anyway..

i will keep update my info..

new user

2009-04-12T03:01:00.000-07:00

haha..
i finally can access to my blog..
my name is sie lih
nw studying in utar
i still dun noe many thing for tis blog
dun noe wat to say...er..
jz leave me a comment if u view my blog..
thanks a lot
^&^